Of cowboys and french maids; dreams and desperations ; hopes and holdings ; insanity and genius ; sex and webcams ; lust and middle age; but mostly, of the making of one's roadmap, without roads and signs.
Doesn't surprise me really. That lust would be the trump card to do me in. I didn't however think that my gluttony, greed and sloth would be as high as well. Hmm. Sometimes we're just creatures of habit aren't we.
Touch it, bring it, obey it, watch it, Turn it, leave it, stop - format it.
Ah a bad guy with class. Does make me wonder at times about my inner self. I do have my little murderous thoughts in my head though. And it's scary at times. Like sometimes in traffic, I seem to have to suppress the urge of wanting to get out, walk over to the retard that cut me off, and beat the fuck out of him with a stick. I do have the stick in my car too.
My freakiest moment was when I started to mentally plot the demise of the neighbourhood kids near my workplace just because they're as ghetto as it gets. And not just a simple shoot em all thought. It was a rather detailed slitting-of-throat followed by dragging the corpse to the next floor to beat the crap out of the next kid.
Or until the head flies off the body.
Shrugs. Maybe I work too much these days.
She reminds me of the one I knew that cut up the negatives of my life. I couldn't take my hands off her, she wouldn't let me be anywhere but inside.
She'll never cover up what we did with her dress. No. She said "kiss me it'll heal, but it won't forget". "Kiss me it'll heal, but it won't forget".
So that makes me a black robot then? Dammit I was hoping to be a decepticon. Guess I don't have enough destructive tendencies in me anyway. It sucks that I die in the movie though. Token black guy death so to speak. There goes the sequels for me. :P
Now that don't kill me can only make me stronger I need you to hurry up now cause I can't wait much longer I know I got to be right now cause I cant get much wronger man i've been waitin all night now that's how long i've been on ya
In about 10 hours I'll be boarding the bus to KL to attend a wedding. One of many that's to come this year surprisingly. The man that's getting married is a person who's not afraid to pursue love regardless of barriers. And it looks like the determination has paid off in spades in more ways than one. He's making waves in the DJ circles, and he's making the sacrifice in the name of love. I'm proud to be invited to this man's wedding which showcases that for once, race nor religion shouldn't be a barrier.
In a way I envy the man. He's managing to pull of what I have failed to do..cross that final barrier as well as dare to pursue his dreams all the way. It's not that I had never reached those bridges, I just didn't have the guts to cross them.
So just in case I get too wasted tomorrow to say anything about it, here's to you Khalil Kenneth Lui. Grats to everything, as well as sticking it to da man!
Salut.
Oh yeah, I always wanted to post this song too.
Tiada bintang Dapat menerangkan hati yang telah dicela Bagai ku lumpuh tak mampu berdiri Aku tetap begini takkan berubah kerna
Aku tetap aku dan alur hidup mu bukanlah aku Guna hati akal dan fikiranku Berbeza engkau dan juga aku Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu Adakah aku Hanya bonekan yang enkau sering mainkan
Yang dikawal oleh jari jarimu Ku punya hati dan perasaan Pernahlah engkau fikirkan Cukuplah cukup oh cukuplah Guna hati akal dan fikiranmu Berbeza engkau dan juga aku Dua hati yang tak mungkin bersatu
Tak tahan tak tahan Sabarku tak tertahan Melayan sikapmu perawan
Berbeza berbeza Kau dan aku berbeza Kita memang tak serupa
Bebaskan Ku ingin dilepaskan Kita tidak sehaluan
Cukuplah sudahlah Sampai disini sahaja Hubungan kita berdua
